Weight fluctuations. In 2014 I was the skinniest I had ever been and yet I was still unhappy in a lot of areas in my life. I was casually dating and trying to find love in all the wrong places. In 2014 I still felt like I wasn’t skinny enough. I remember saying oh man I need another 20 more pounds to lose. What I was searching for was voids to fill my unhappiness and just blaming it on my body. Then come to 2015 and 2016 where I put myself in terrible relationships I put myself last, I gained some weight and I continued to blame the weight of why I wasn’t worthy enough in these relationships or happy. I finally realized I needed to let go of those relationships because I was driving myself crazy.
Then I found myself in 2017 single alone in a city where had no family and friends. I felt so heartbroken and lost I didn’t feel worthy at all. I found myself quickly trying to date again and trying to fill the void with someone because I thought someone can surely make me happy. Then I found myself again looking at my body saying it’s not good enough to be dating and I’m never going to find a good relationship because of my body. I was totally delusional and it took a total breakdown to finally break through. I’ve began to date myself and rekindle the relationship I had with myself. I had to forgive myself as I neglected myself and put myself last.
Now at the end of 2017 I’m the happiest I’ve ever been because I picked myself up and I know now I’m the person that makes me happy. It’s not someone else it’s not having the perfect body but it comes from within. It takes a lot of work I constantly read books and watch self help videos still a journey but I know now I’m on the right path.
I had to share the tools, knowledge and empowerment with other women. I want to bring women up who have been in my situation or are in that situation now but want to be on a self love body acceptance journey. I am working on providing tools, ecourses, guides, and one on one coaching that will focus on building positive thinking, building a game plan for your life and focusing on the things that are holding you back. These tools are coming soon and I look forward to sharing with you all.
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